Good people still exist.

Let go.

"I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend." -The Shawshank Redemption

Seems that all I did was blink...

Ten years ago God made me a Mother of an adorable healthy baby boy. He has truly been a blessing to me. Teaching me how to love beyond reason, he has brought so much joy and happiness to our families lives. Today, Michael turns 10 years old and has many new adventures ahead of him. He's been there to make my heart smile over and over again even on my worst days. All I have to do is dig a memory that's embedded in my heart.
I wasn't always this lucky to be home with our boys. There was a time I worked at an office. I would come see them on lunch breaks and go back to work cause I felt guilty of not being able to be home with them. Every minute I got to see them made me feel better knowing that I was doing this all for us, our family. We'd always have a long drive home in traffic. Some days were unbearable from getting up while still dark outside dragging two sleepy heads out of bed. Somehow, I did it. I believe it was the grace that God gives us when we feel we can't make it.
Michael would sing songs with me as his little brother drank his bottle and tried to mumble the lyrics in the car on the way home. The song in today's blog makes my eyes water, cause in my mind I see my little ones in the rear view mirror singing to their mommy when I hear it.
Time unfortunetly waits for no one before we know it we're grown ups wishing we were kids again. I just can't believe how fast it has gone and here we are 10 years have passed us by. I know the years ahead are not going to be easy raising my son but I will be here beside him to help and him guide along the way the best that I can. As tears fill my eyes while writing this, I hope that he knows I will always be here for him. My first born who changed my whole purpose in life by making me a mommy. I thank you for the memories you've given me and look forward to the ones to come. You've always given me a sense of hope and have made my "Bad Days" better with a smile and a song I hold in my heart. Whenever I hear this song I think of you it's one of my most precious memories. Happy Birthday Michael. I love you with all my heart. Love Always, Mom

Narcissus

So the story goes the legend of Narcissus, a youth who knelt daily beside a lake to cotemplate his own beauty. He was so facinated by himself that, one morning, he fell into the late and drowned. At the spot where he fell, a flower was born, which was called the Narcissus. But this was not how the author of the story ended the story.
He said that when Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of salty tears. "Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked. "I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied. "Ah, it is no surprise that you weep for Narcissus," they said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you alone could comtemplate his beauty close at hand." "But...was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.

"Who better than you to know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself!"